{"id":37787,"date":"2023-09-17T15:08:00","date_gmt":"2023-09-17T19:08:00","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/starshipnivan.com\/blog\/?p=37787"},"modified":"2023-09-17T19:03:26","modified_gmt":"2023-09-17T23:03:26","slug":"dwindling-into-silence","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/starshipnivan.com\/blog\/?p=37787","title":{"rendered":"Dwindling into Silence"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><a href=\"https:\/\/starshipnivan.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2011\/05\/Sea-Gate-full.jpg\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" class=\"aligncenter wp-image-4488\" src=\"https:\/\/starshipnivan.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2011\/05\/Sea-Gate-full.jpg\" alt=\"\" width=\"448\" height=\"292\" srcset=\"https:\/\/starshipnivan.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2011\/05\/Sea-Gate-full.jpg 690w, https:\/\/starshipnivan.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2011\/05\/Sea-Gate-full-300x195.jpg 300w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 448px) 100vw, 448px\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>Faced with a few shoals in my sea of life, I know I\u2019ve reneged on my wish\/promise earlier this year to reactivate my blog. If the latest round of ordeals leaves me standing, I will try to remedy that. At times like these,\u00a0I always think of how much I haven&#8217;t done or seen yet&#8230;but also how lucky I have been in my friendships and experiences.<\/p>\n<p>As age inexorably overtakes us, our intrinsic abilities get blunted: memory, stamina, input from the senses. All these changes weaken, isolate us and encroach upon both calmness of mind and ability to experience pleasure. What we once achieved effortlessly becomes difficult or impossible. But athletes and dancers learn this hard lesson much earlier in life\u2014as do sufferers of incurable chronic or progressive diseases.<\/p>\n<p>Too, if we\u2019ve opined on many things\u2014as I have\u2014it feels redundant to discuss them again unless we\u2019ve had a major change of mind\/heart. This results in further isolation and an ever-growing sense (and bona fide status) of irrelevance. And the fact that so much of my fiction lies half-finished, put aside while I\u2019ve been running my tiny indie press single-handedly, has been haunting me nonstop.<\/p>\n<p>Vows made to ourselves during a crisis are often forgotten when we enter calmer waters. But I made two today, and will do my utmost to honor them if I\u2019m granted the leeway. I\u2019ll catch up with my precious friends, and stay in touch thereafter. And I will revisit the universes I created, where I spent long spells of unclouded bliss. My heartfelt thanks to the beloved companions who shared portions of this journey.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Faced with a few shoals in my sea of life, I know I\u2019ve reneged on my wish\/promise earlier this year to reactivate my blog. If the latest round of ordeals leaves me standing, I will try to remedy that. At times like these,\u00a0I always think of how much I haven&#8217;t done or seen yet&#8230;but also [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[299,285,298,300,79],"class_list":["post-37787","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized","tag-aging","tag-friends","tag-life","tag-promises","tag-writing"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/starshipnivan.com\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/37787","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/starshipnivan.com\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/starshipnivan.com\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/starshipnivan.com\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/starshipnivan.com\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=37787"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/starshipnivan.com\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/37787\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/starshipnivan.com\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=37787"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/starshipnivan.com\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=37787"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/starshipnivan.com\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=37787"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}